Caregiver-one of life's hardest jobs

     Being a caregiver is a hard job. It is 24/7. You are wife, mother, cook, maid, nurse, driver, gardener, errand runner, grocery shopper...etc. Most of this stuff is normal mom stuff... True!!  However when you are faced with cancer and your mind is always on that...throw in all those other things...and it changes your mental focus... You want to fix things, make them right... I know I can't but I want to! 

     Being off of work... Being home most of the time... Stir crazy... When things are going good you dare to not think about cancer and why you haven't worked in 6 weeks..but then you remember ... You pray a lot... You take care of your loved ones... You try and keep strong and always put up the brave face... Sometimes you can't... You have to cry... You have to let that out and give it to God and then remember it's okay to do that.

     Being a caregiver is lonely.... You get stuck in your new routines... While everyone around you are doing their normal lives. It's hard to ask for help, especially when most days you are just hanging at the house or trying not to be out in public too much when those crucial low immune days are at hand.

Sometimes you don't have a need to ask someone for... Sometimes it can just be spending time with someone to get your mind off what you are living 24/7. 

     It's hard to put in words... I am extremely grateful for all the prayers and love we have received, it really does help!! Sorry for the rambling... I think I am all over the place with this post... Oh well, next post won't be so scattered!!